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For that matter, Happy April 20th or 21st or 22nd or ANY day.
Pick any date in the long calendar of the year, then go back
through history - it will not take long to find something awful
to recall.
You are familiar with David Heller's delightful little book,
Dear God: Children's Letters to God.(1) There are some wonderfully
witty observations. For example, apropos of the season,
Then there is this one from a youngster who sees all the
April 19ths (or whatever date) on the calendar and wonders: "Dear
God, I have doubts about you sometimes. Sometimes I really
believe. Like when I was four and I hurt my arm and you healed
it up fast. But my question is - if you could do this why don't
you stop all the bad in the world? Like war. Like diseases.
Like famine. Like drugs. And there are problems in other
people's neighborhoods too. I'll try to believe more. Ian (age
10)"
Is there any of young Ian in you? Or how about the hero of
our gospel lesson, Thomas? "Inquiring minds want to know," as
the old commercial used to say. We would ALL admit to doubts.
There are so many awful things out there - terrorist bombings,
devastating tornadoes, babies in dumpsters, and yes, good people
murdered just as Thomas' friend Jesus had been for the flimsiest
of reasons. Only an ostrich would not have doubts.
Thomas' story is familiar to us. The risen Christ had
appeared to those of the Twelve who happened to be there on the
evening of the resurrection. Thomas was not there. We are never
told where he was, only that his friends let him know what he had
missed. (Not a bad evangelism lesson for the modern church, eh?)
Jesus alive? No way, says Thomas. "Unless I see the mark of the
nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails
and my hand in his side, I will not believe."
A week later, Thomas in attendance now, Jesus appears again
and moves directly to our skeptical friend. "Put your finger
here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my
side. Do not doubt but believe." And the rest of the story we
know. Thomas proclaims for all the world to hear, "My Lord and
my God!"
Please note something here: the story of Thomas' move from
doubt to faith appears in the Gospel of John. As you Bible
scholars know, of all the gospel writers, John is the one most
intentional about sharing stories that are to be understood for
more than their face value - there is a faith-based reason behind
every one. In this case, the reason is laid out plainly - first
on Jesus' lips ("Have you believed because you have seen me?
Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to
believe"), then in the narrative ("Now Jesus did many other signs
in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this
book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that
Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing
you may have life in his name"). John is calling us to faith,
and he is using Thomas as a surrogate for everyone of us who find
believing difficult in the midst of a world that regularly seems
ready to spin right off its axis.
No question, "Inquiring minds want to know," but can they?
Are there not some questions to which, wish though we might, we
will never have answers? At least not in this life? To me, that
is an inescapable conclusion, but it is one I can live with...and
even be content. I think it is part and parcel of growing up.
There is a wonderful "growing up" tale that I have seen so
often that I no longer have any idea where it originated.(2) Our
narrator's name is Jim, and this is his story:
Then I discovered that somewhere inside the wonderful
device lived an amazing person. Her name was Information Please,
and there was nothing she did not know. Information Please could
supply anybody's number and the correct time.
My first personal experience with this genie-in-the-bottle
came one day while my mother was visiting a neighbor. Amusing
myself at the tool bench in the basement, I whacked my finger
with a hammer. The pain was terrible, but there didn't seem to
be any reason in crying because there was no one home to give
sympathy. I walked around the house sucking my throbbing finger,
finally arriving at the stairway - the telephone!
Quickly I ran for the footstool in the parlor and dragged
it to the landing. Climbing up I unhooked the receiver in the
parlor and held it to my ear. "Information Please," I said into
the mouthpiece just above my head.
A click or two and a small clear voice spoke into my ear.
"Information."
"I hurt my finger..." I wailed into the phone. The tears
came readily enough now that I had an audience.
"Isn't your mother home?" came the question.
"Nobody's home but me," I blubbered.
"Are you bleeding?"
"No," I replied. "I hit my finger with the hammer and it
hurts."
"Can you open your icebox?" she asked. I said I could.
"Then chip off a little piece of ice and hold it to your finger."
After that I called Information Please for everything. I
asked her for help with my geography, and she told me where
Philadelphia was. She helped me with my math, and she told me my
pet chipmunk I had caught in the park just the day before would
eat fruits and nuts.
And there was the time that Petey, our pet canary died. I
called Information Please and told her the sad story. She
listened, then said the usual things grown-ups say to soothe a
child. But I was unconsoled. Why is it that birds should sing
so beautifully and bring joy to all families, only to end up as
a heap of feathers, feet up on the bottom of a cage?
She must have sensed my deep concern, for she said quietly,
"Jim, always remember that there are other worlds to sing in."
Somehow I felt better.
Another day I was on the telephone. "Information Please."
"Information," said the now familiar voice.
"How do you spell fix?" I asked.
All this took place in a small town in the pacific
Northwest. Then when I was 9 years old, we moved across the
country to New York. I missed my friend very much. Information
Please belonged in that old wooden box back home, and I somehow
never thought of trying the tall, shiny new phone that sat on the
hall table.
Yet as I grew into my teens, the memories of those
childhood conversations never really left me; often in moments of
doubt and perplexity I would recall the serene sense of security
I had then. I appreciated now how patient, understanding, and
kind she was to have spent her time on a little boy.
A few years later, on my way west to college, my plane put
down in Tacoma. I had about half an hour or so between plane,
and I spent 15 minutes or so on the phone with my sister, who
lived there now. Then without thinking what I was doing, I
dialed my hometown operator and said, "Information Please."
Miraculously, I heard again the small, clear voice I knew
so well, "Information." I hadn't planned this but I heard myself
saying, "Could you tell me please how to spell fix?"
There was a long pause. Then came the soft spoken answer,
"I guess that your finger must have healed by now."
I laughed, "So it's really still you," I said. "I wonder
if you have any idea how much you meant to me during that time."
"I wonder," she said, "if you know how much your calls
meant to me. I never had any children, and I used to look
forward to your calls."
I told her how often I had thought of her over the years,
and I asked if I could call her again when I came back to visit
my sister.
"Please do, just ask for Betsy."
Just three months later I was back in Tacoma. A different
voice answered Information and I asked for Betsy.
"Are you a friend?"
"Yes, a very old friend."
"Then I'm sorry to have to tell you. Betsy has been
working part-time the last few years because she was sick. She
died five weeks ago.' But before I could hang up she said, 'Wait
a minute. Did you say your name was Jim?"
"Yes."
"Well, Betsy left a message for you. She wrote it down.
Here it is I'll read it. 'Tell him I still say there are other
worlds to sing in. He'll know what I mean.'"
I thanked her and hung up. I did know what Betsy meant.
Did he really? No. No more than Betsy or you or me. Not
about that or any of the other really deep questions of faith.
No matter. Yes, "Inquiring minds want to know," but can we?
Well...
In the nearly 2000 years which have come and gone since
Thomas' night in the Upper Room - in every land, in every nation,
throughout the whole wide world, no matter how many April 19ths
go by, people HAVE been able to get past their doubts. Not
lunatics or fanatics or even ostriches. It has simply been a
matter of tapping into the same peace, the same happiness, the
same love and radiant resurrection victory that Thomas came to
know.
Would you like to fellowship with the risen Jesus as he did?
Your problems solved by his wisdom? Your weakness turned into
strength by his presence? Your struggles become victories by his
grace? Your sorrows turned to joy by his comfort and peace. The
same wonderful changes that have come to millions these past 2000
years can come to the anxious mother, the fearful father, the
stressed-out spouse, the tempted teen. They can be YOURS as you
welcome Jesus into your heart and life.
"Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my
finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will
not believe." Come. Touch. See. With eyes of faith. Then
proclaim with Thomas, "My Lord and My God!"
1. Bantam, 1987 2. Perhaps in one of the Chicken Soup for the Soul volumes??? In its current incarnation it
comes from Roxann Miller, via Ecunet, "H Square," #1142, 4/14/98
When I was quite young, my father had one of the first
telephones in our neighborhood. I remember well the polished old
case fastened to the wall. The shiny receiver hung on the side
of the box. I was too little to reach the telephone, but used to
listen with fascination when my mother used to talk to it.
Amen!

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